Naptime

Desmond and I took an afternoon nap together yesterday, my day off. I had forgotten how nice it is and how important to just stop thinking of that master to do list, tune out, lay down and listen to my son breathe and dream. I cuddled him next to me as we drifted off, he nursing from time to time, side-by-side and it was the sweetest feeling. How different then at 6 weeks, when he was so little I was afraid to fall asleep with him so close. He is such the little boy now - grabbing his feet, putting everything in his mouth, giggling over and over at funny sounds and big kisses on his belly and arms.
The adjustment to a full time (or nearly) work schedule, commuting, Desmond's daycare schedule, and still trying to take care of myself (manicure anyone?), eat well, and relax with Patrick and Des is a balancing act. I have to learn to let the house go sometimes (and not be overwhelmed by such a state) and focus on my family - still an unfamiliar word despite how wonderful our little one has become with the addition of Desmond. I have to remember to take the time to fully focus on him for an hour or two without a single distraction. - while he still lets me.